♥...Pain Is Back, Happy Is Gone...♥

Love or Pain

2009-06-18T09:04:00.000-07:00

The only love i get is from God, my church friends... No one else know mii better than them... How i wish things good be more better to mii... Nothing much is in my mind now... So Ya~

T-T

2009-04-27T08:59:00.000-07:00

why cant i just have a life that is not this way? why must all my friend back-stab me ? WHY ?

Tears Because Of Sad

2009-04-24T01:05:00.000-07:00

It has pass so long.... But why... Why cant i forget him? Someone help me please.... I really wish to forget it.... But I just cant.... Why must I be born.... How i wish to ___.... Tears just cant stop coming down.... I hate myself... T-T

~Back With Pain~ More Pain~

2009-04-23T03:16:00.001-07:00

I really don know what to do... He have leave me and don talk to me... All my friend are ignoring me... What can i do? Why must my life be this way? School work....stress, House work....more stress,Friends....more more more stress.... Why cant i just stop crying.... In school i cry, at home i cry... I cry like everyday... T-T

lol = lack of love

2009-04-11T11:49:00.000-07:00

last post...... cause i'm dead and my blog is too....

~Pain Is Always Coming Back~

2009-04-09T07:15:00.000-07:00

I really don know what to do... I had cry for a few days.... But I still cant forget him..... Y-Y I really miss him.... T-T Hope he talk to me soon~

~Pain~

2009-04-04T08:26:00.000-07:00

LOVE IS PAIN, LOVE HURT, LOVE IS KNIFE...... LOVE IS SOMETHING THAT HURT MY HEART...... PAIN IS 2X NOW.... MY HEART IS GONE.... MY HEART WILL NEVER BE BACK... IT JUST BEING TAKE AWAY AND NEVER COME BACK......

~~~~~PAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~~

~Sick~

2009-03-29T02:25:00.000-07:00

I really don mean to hurt him... I'm just scared! Is hard for me too~ Having Fever at 38.8 degrees... Having cough, running nose, vomiting,... Is painful.....

~Pain & Crying Is Always My Ending~

2009-03-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

Once again the pain is back~ I very painful~ Just like a knife stab into me but now is not me but my heart.... I really love him~ Why is this going to end this way~ What happen to the 1314 520? I really hate it to end this way~ IS VERY PAINFUL!!!!! I really want to emo and cut myself~ but i promise him i wont do it~ But it is really hard to stop myself but i try... I try anything for him~ When he send me the msg, it really break my heart... Now cutting my hand has no pain cause the pain is in my heart~ Why must this happen to me? Why cant I have a happy ending? My Love For You Is Still The Same~ Never Ever Change A Bit~ Q_ H__ ~ T~T
Love: Fion~

Angry

2009-03-25T02:54:00.001-07:00

I HATE MYSELF FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol

2009-03-24T12:09:00.000-07:00

(^(oo)^)

LoL

2009-03-24T00:15:00.000-07:00

Nothing Here

~Pain And Sad~

2009-03-20T11:09:00.000-07:00

Why must I always be the one that get hurt ? Is really very painful~ Crying everyday but it no use~ I must be happy no matter I'm sad or hurt.... Cause I really don't want people near me to worry for me~ I really feel like dying sometime but still I will be stop~ I hope I can just die~ No more mood to write...

T.T

2009-03-18T07:42:00.000-07:00

I was thinking should I die but in the end I never but I EMO and cut myself 10 times~ I cry and cry~ The guy say : " Noboby cares about you cause your a loner if you have a friend than there a breakthrought for since cause you bought them from the mall guess you don know what i mean so to summarise it, it means you a loser that has no friends " Now I know... I'm a loser~

(^(oo)^)

2009-03-18T06:38:00.000-07:00

T.T

2009-02-19T02:32:00.000-08:00

Today a bit sad~ T.T Really Sad~ My friend from primary school just call me and scold me for nothing......... T.T When going home today nearly fainted ~ Sad~ Yumay that time having a fight with me but in the end she just talk to me like nothing have happen~ She keep using me!!!! I am really very angry..... I don't want to friend her..... but i don know how~ HAIZ~~~ HELP ME~!!!!!!!!~

Sad ??? Angry ??? Happy ???

2009-02-08T08:24:00.000-08:00

Yesterday I went out with Yumay and Rujia....... We went to take photo~ Haha~ After that Rujia went home and Yumay come my house.... I teach her how to sing and we think of new dance step..... Haha~ >.<

NOTHING TO WRITE LE.......

Tears is coming out everyday~

2009-02-06T01:00:00.000-08:00

Tears is coming out from my every single day~ My eyes hurt a lot...... I tried cutting myself but still no use~ Crying is the only thing I can do..... nothing much to say..... FEEL LIKE CRYING AGAIN~

=.=

2009-02-05T08:20:00.000-08:00

Today very sad~ My best friend betray me~ I want to kill her~ T.T nothing much today..... After school when home..... Sit there do nothing...... T.T

In tear right now~

2009-01-30T22:45:00.000-08:00

Everyday living with the same old things and the same old time~ T.T I'm tired of this...... I wish i'll just be gone~

^-^

2009-01-17T12:20:00.001-08:00

Haha~ So long never post blog now feel very new~ Hmmmmm.... My sec sch was AWESOME~ I love my new school~ LOL~ I just left my primary school not long and I miss it so much already~ I must find one day and go back to school~ Ya~ I did not go church much now~ Sometime bacause busy and sometime can't face someone~ Ya~ So not much to say~ Bye~

New school~ ^,^

2009-01-06T06:42:00.000-08:00

Today was AWESOME~ Today was the last day of camp~ I will miss my Fac but I think I can still see them in school~ I WILL MISS THEM~!!!~ REALLY~!!!~

Haha~ But I miss the most is my KORKOR~ =(

Marry Christmas!!!

2008-12-19T09:06:00.000-08:00

Today I go to my new school..... It was big~ There is also gun shooting...... So awesome~ But my unifrom suck~ Haha, but is ok..... ^,^ Hmmmm....... I very sick sia~ I cant wait for tomorrow~~~~ Today was AWESOME~ MY LIFE IS EMO!!! SUPER EMO!!!

AWESOME, PAIN AND SICK DAY~

2008-12-16T12:14:00.000-08:00

Awesome yesterday~ On 16 December 2008, Wednesday. This day was awesome~ Morning i don't know why i woke up at 9.30am, when i sleep at 4.30am the night before...... WEIRD~ ok back to the post~ I woke up at 9.30am, I rest awhile and when to bathe..... After i bathe is like about 10am..... So i quickly wear my dress and when to mrt station~ I take the train to bugis to meet my meii SingDee~ Haha~ We first went shopping for christmas present, than we went to take NeoPrint~ So cool that we see a lot of picture~ Walk for awhile, than we take mrt and than bus to meet Joanna at beer garden~ My meii and I reach brfore Joanna~ In the morning i drink milk but I forgot i can't drink milk...... So at beer, I order fishball noodle... Before I eat, I got a very bad stomachache... i went to the toilet~ When i came out I'm still in pain, so i never eat, my meii eat for me~ ^~^ After Joanna come meet us, she eat.... We went to ICC to eat ice-cream~ Before we go ICC, we waited for Angel~ So weird, after i eat i not pain liao~ o.O" After eating, we just sat and chat~ We chat very long~ Than we went to a playground to play crocodile~ We like became 5 to 6 year old sia~ Haha~ when we play like awhile, Angel and Joanna want to rest, when they resting.... Suddenly, Joanna feel like vomiting~ " Like me~ " Than we went to Angel to get medicine for Joanna~ After awhile we have photo war~ Haha~ Post photo later~ *-* very fast is 5.30pm~ So my meii and I went home~ After i went home, I just start doing house work and then i wrap present~ I have my mom to wrap~And i wrap mine~ But i can't finish cause I was VERY SICK~ I took a break and call my kor~ ^~^ Love Talking With Him~ Haha~ But still sick... So he call me to rest~ After i hang the photo~ i wrap like 1 or 2 more present, than i went to sleep..... is like 10.30~ But than i woke up at 1am~ So stupid~ Haha~ WOW THIS IS A LONG POST !!!!! i should stop~

Prayer: Dear Lord, I thank you for giving me this awesome day~ I pray that Fiath step father will let her come on saturday~ Lord i also want to pray for saturday service, everything will go as you want lord~ We hand this day to you lord~ Amen~

Sad and Unhappy Day but Cant Emo~

2008-12-10T23:42:00.000-08:00

Today was a very sad and unhappy day~ Sad thing was..... I fainted from 7am to 3pm~ When i wake up, I found out that I have HIGH FEVER~ The fever is about 38.1~ and I still have other kind of sick.... And then feel like vomiting~ SO SICK~!!~ Hope someone but not my mom and dad will care about me~!!!!~ Like maybe a boy or something~ The unhappy thing was..... I am being scold by Faith my own sister because of she like to fake angry~ I feel like angry but not angry sad but not sad~!!!!!~ Really don know~ Haha~ Ok this is done~ Now is time for prayer~

Dear Lord~ I thank you for my family and all my friends lord~ Lord I pray that you cansave my family and friends who are not saved lord~ You will guide them to you lord~ Protect them lord~ In Jesus Name I Pray~ Amen~

Lame Day~

2008-12-10T04:34:00.000-08:00

Today was very lame but i still got one thing that is happy~ The happy thing is that Harold is back~ I miss him when he is not around so weird~ Haha~ Maybe is because that he is one of my friend~ haha~ Maybe something else~ I don know~ Time for prayer~

Dear Lord, I thank you for protecting Harold when he went to malaysia~ I want to pray again for my mom and dad to be saved lord~ In Jesus Name I Pray- Amen~

Awesome Day~

2008-12-09T06:12:00.000-08:00

Today was AWESOME~ My Mother took half day off to go shopping with me~ Haha i love her~ She brought me 2 pair of shoes, a bag, sony color print pack and some sweets~ I love my mother~ I LOVE YOU MOM~!~

Dear lord, I thank you for my mother, I pray that she will be saved and you will guide her to you lord...... Jesus name i pray..... Amen~

I want more of you lord ~

2008-12-07T22:35:00.000-08:00

Today was a holiday for my whole family..... Suppoesd to have dinner with my family but end up everyone do nothing~ haix.... I still thinking that if he is my boyfriend~ how happy i will be~ Ok!! I must stop daydreaming~!!~ Back to blog~ Now my friend are getting lesser and lesser~!~

But is ok i still got my cell~~ haha~

Hello~

2008-12-07T03:06:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone~ First time blogging here~ Haha~ Sorry that I am like so EMO last time..... Trying to change, please give me chance~ ^-^ Thank you~ Haha~ Now lets talk about today~

Today, for me is so bored..... Haha~ But never mind...... You know, I have a new sister. Name: Sing Dee~ haha~

And my other sister meet from November.... Name: Faith~